As I continue on my path, I continue to uncover little “nuggets” here and there, as I think each of us will as we continue to become more awake and expansive.
What’s been interesting for me to witness in my own life, and the life of my clients, is how often we live in complete avoidance. There are many things we can’t explain, sometimes life just happens. But then there are times when all of the answers we’d ever need are right in front of our faces, and we refuse to witness it.
There are many reasons that we subconsciously keep ourselves in the dark. Fear, lack of understanding, life long patterns. We may at times become aware enough to have a glimpse of the problem or things we’re avoiding. And with the peek at the “glimpse” we decide to change small things, many times hardening our hearts and creating even bigger walls – as opposed to softening our hearts and tearing down walls.
Or there are other times where we get a glimpse of the problem or things we’re avoiding and decide HELL NO. I’m not dealing with this (again), I’ve been there and done that, I’ve dealt with this (for example: I dumped my last boyfriend for this, I’m not doing this again with my new boyfriend), or we fear the changes that we’ll need to make within ourselves. Within our schedules. Within our daily choices. We just want a constant – and the place of craziness we live in has become home, and you know the saying…the grass isn’t always greener.
Well…what I’ve come away with, from living in avoidance and ignoring all of the signs, symptoms, repetitions, patterns, lessons, etc – the grass IS greener in a place of awareness. In being alive. In being present. In being awake.
This DOES NOT mean that life will be perfect. There will be problems, sadness, happiness, ups and downs. But when we avoid the things we’re afraid to face, we literally keep ourselves from being able to move. Life just floats by. There are parts of my life (years) that I barely remember because I was in the midst of just plan ol’ avoidance. I wasn’t choosing avoidance by choice, but it was the way that my subconscious chose to deal with it, and because I wasn’t living present to my life, I was completely unaware this was happening. What was happening was anxiety & panic attacks. My body trying to get my attention to the fact the trash compacter in my head that I’d been storing all of my feelings subconsciously was completely overflowing.
What parts of your life are just happening without your presence? Your finances? Your marriage? Your relationship to your children? Your career? What have you decided to pack away for later and why? Why are you afraid to face it?
We deserve to have a life we are present to. We deserve to give our conscious mind the opportunity to deal with the feelings and problems we have. We deserve to attempt to solve problems in our lives or choose to flow through things we can’t control. But we aren’t choosing any of this when we are unaware of how we’re living, thinking, and feeling.
Start an inner conversation with yourself. What’s missing? Be kind, be compassionate, and be awakened.